Wednesday, May 24, 2006
9:10 PM
[ `anileC ]
How unfortunate! I had misplaced my EZ link card. Seriously, I didn't realise that I lost it until I was about to head home from school. So, ransacked my bag and search for the potential places but couldn't find it somehow.I didn't know this calamity will once again befall onto me.Argh...Now I have to make a new one. Waste money, waste time...Dead beat... got to catch some sleep! Ja ne
YYY
Sunday, May 21, 2006
12:41 PM
[ `anileC ]
Okay, Anatomy test was a total screwed up. My buoyant spirit was ruined after the ludicrous test. Nothing more to say. Ja ne.
YYY
Thursday, May 18, 2006
12:11 AM
[ `anileC ]
TIRED...JADED...DISTRESSED...What else? I'm just feeling so tuckered out and still have to wear a smile across my face in school. I know I'm not succeeding but I tried. Anyway, shouldn't have taken elective. Its absolutely irksome. It is a waste of time. Staying here is a waste of time too. *sighs... I just don't have the motivation to persevere because it's utterly vexing. Genetics is the module for tomorrow and the RJ is sorely a killer. I will probably have to spend hours of time researching for the arduous solution. Ultimately, I will be left with no time to study for the Anatomy test on the following day. I am so gonna mess the test up because I am certain that I will be too fatigued for revision. ARGH...Great. This is so aggravating. I just wanna sleep! KAMI SAMA, TASUKETE!!! ONEGAI!!!
YYY
Saturday, May 13, 2006
10:45 PM
[ `anileC ]
HMM...This is going to be melancholic!
School is taxing...School is dreary...School is loathsome...It's not stimulating any interest or enthusiasm. I just wanna get out of this absurb place. It is a blunder. A grave one. I'm just trying so hard to get the weight off my shoulders but the attempts were seemingly futile. Apparently, things were catastrophic. It's not going according to what I have expected after the decision was made. I am not happy honestly. I want to do what I like...do the stuff I fancy for and not being kept imprisoned here. Unfortunately, I allowed that chance to slip away. How dumb can I be? To think that I can be happy here when there was a surge of determination to switch back then. Now I'm in a state of uncertainty once again. Everyone used to be cheery, bubbly and happy. But now, so much has changed...including me. If only we can turn back time where everyone has no troubles and pain, life is just simply fun and meaningful. Anyway, I feel so bad for the people around me. I got them involved in this stupid mess that I have caused. BUT Thanks for putting up with me all this while! I'm very grateful! HONTOU NI! haha. Sorry for the misery! Gomen nasai. T.T OK! So much for ranting. haha. ARGH. I'm screwed. =P STAY FREE MY MISERY!!!
When love is an affliction,
There's not much one can do.
Despite the way you've treated me,
I'm still in love with you.
I am the wave and you the rock
Against which I must break:
Again, again the crushing jolt,
The pain I can't forsake;
Again, again the long retreat
To safety, far from shore,
And then again, I don't know why,
The long trip back for more.
Perhaps it is nostalgia for
A long uncertain glow,
Or just some hope so beautiful
I cannot let it go.
Perhaps it is the need to try
For those who must depend
On who we are and what we do,
For whom this should not end.
What evil makes you hurt me so,
What defect of the heart?
What sense there is no greater whole
Of which you are a part?
What lonely choice that only you
Be served by what you choose?
What hard, hard fear of losing what
It is a gift to lose?
I dream sometimes my waiting love
Has made you turn again.
But you care only for yourself,
And I must love in vain.
I know I must have hurt you, caused you pain.
More, I know that I have lost your trust.
I wish I had that moment back again
To pulverize my carelessness and lust.
Sometimes we have to lose what we most cherish
To understand how much we are in need.
We play with life until we nearly perish
To dare the darkness, though within we bleed.
I need you as the Sun must have a rose
To turn its empty radiance to glory,
Or as a nation needs someone who knows
The secrets of its long-forgotten story.
I know my need of you more than before;
Thus for my trespass you may trust me more.
YYY
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